when i made the decision to move to san francisco, i did it with a very clear plan (i'm definitely one of those people that plans out every second of every year of my life, so plans are important). but once i got here and got settled into my new company, i found myself hating dancing. every morning i didn't want to get out of bed, i didn't want to go to class, and i certainly didn't want to go to rehearsal. after a few months, i knew i wasn't in the right place, so i quit. it was a very drastic decision, and for a while i really regretted it. having so little professional experience on my resume is terrifying. but ever since i quit, i've been enjoying dancing all over again. my focus is now on classical ballet and my technique, in hopes that i'll be ready for auditions this month.
while i love dancing again, i hate waiting to see if any company will take me. no matter how well i dance, i feel so nervous about standing out enough to be chosen. fingers crossed!!!